It's hilarious how the world works

It's hilarious how the world works.

Love...
1)You miss this someone when she's not around, but she's feeling the same exact way for someone else.
2) You wake up thinking of this someone and what is she up to, and
someone else out there wakes up with this someone thinking of her
in that same way too.
3) You want to do whatever you can to make her happy,but someone
else can just smile, and that would drown her in glee.


Someone once said there is that one person out there meant just for each and every one.
If you meet this person at the wrong time or wrong place, does it mean it is over and done?

Life....
1)You work so hard to get what you want, but someone else can be born into a world of endless cash and fun.
2) You study so hard to get the paper for future, but someone else can have their future all laid out in front to last forever.
3) You experience more downs than ups, but someone else does not even understand what down means, for their downs are about not having most than enough.

Someone once said there is no reason to compare, for there will always be someone above another.
To understand the meaning does not mean i am any less further.

It's hilarious how the world actually works.

Wise saying #3

Someone once asked me:"

Is it better to love someone who doesn't reciprocate coz she doesn't know?
Or someone who knows but doesn't reciprocate because she doesn't feel the same way?"

I stared blankly:
"Who you actually fall in love with is not for you to say."

Another Lesson

i need to be wiser
i need to learn faster
to know if those were hints
and what exactly it means.

Maybe i read too much into it
Maybe i wish for it to fit
Into what i want to think
Into the kind of hope it brings.

But if the hopes were placed too high
They may,in the end,fall, crash and die
I'd rather place it really low
So i can take it even if it becomes a blow.

Hopes should always stay low.

the 5 Ws 2 Hs.

Where did all my confidence go?
When will i find the courage to let You know?
Why i feel the way i do?
What exactly is that feeling i feel?
How can i ever show?
the Who is actually You.

Teach me How to.

A wonderful night.

The gems above sparkling bright
In this starry, starry night
the planes rumbled pass
so low yet so high above us
the wind blew on
so gentle yet so strong.

what a wonderful night.

Her.

Just when I thought it was over
Once again I got to see her.
Just like before my heart thumped.
Just like before my pulse jumped.

Once more I got to see my attitude girl.

Memories.

Memories

Little stories that used to be the present
Yet somehow turned into the past.
Each one holds some kind of lesson
that is taught from life's class.

Memories

Some are meant to be bitter
in order for us to learn
how not to belittle
these lessons concerned.

Memories

Others are meant to be sweet
In order for time to bask
These are meant for keeps
And these will always last.

Memories

Some are slowly fading away
Some long forgotten
Those which are here to stay
are those of importance.

Memories
Some still come back clearly.

my kind of perfection.

perfection is each individual's perception.

my kind of perfection...

a long,slow stroll alone in the cooling breeze in the darkening hours of the night...
coffee sessions with loved ones by my side...
long conversations with mum about life's ups and downs...
a relaxing soak in the tub with soothing music playing in the background...
a good read of interesting twists and turns...
a good movie about romance and love...
lying by the beach with no worries except how nice the tan will turn out...
a private place for my own personal space where i can scream and shout...
a holiday to anywhere with more than enough to spend...
abundance of leisure time on my hands...
parties with good music and free flow of alcohol...
my money growing by itself more and more...
long drives under the stars with no fixed destination...
good food during a pigging out session...



Perfection.

i have realised.

i should have known better than to think otherwise
Should have seen it coming before it materialised.
Should have anticipated it before it gets precise.
i should have, a long time ago, realise.

this is how things are meant to happen
at least now it has reached a conclusion.
it is a clear realization.

i have come to realise.

A lesson

i come to learn...

Silence can be deafening
Yet noise can be silenced.

Questions can get answers
Yet answers can be questioned.

Medicine can be poisonous
Yet poison can be a cure.

Endurance can be tiring
Yet Fatique can be endured.

Fearsome can be brave
Yet Bravery can be fearful.

Pain can be numbed
Yet Numbness can be painful.

Movement can come to a stop
Yet Stillness can be moving.

You can be clear of confusion
Yet Clarity can be confusing.

Admittance can be denied
Yet Denial can be admitted.

Acceptance can be refused
Yet Refusal can be accepted.

To take things slow can make them fast
To rush into things can slow them down.

To seek can be hidden
To hide can be found.

help.

Will you please be my inner voice
help me drown out all the other noise

So i could turn a deaf ear
to the other things i do not want to hear.

Because I may not be able to take it any longer.

唯一。的你。

一线 希望
一份 忘怀
一次 释放
一次 失败

一个 理由
一份 友谊
一个 是否
一个 问题

一份 不舍
一份 难忍
一次 忍受
一个 永恒。

i dislike me sometimes.

some people get to reap what was left behind
get to enjoy what was not their own hard work's find
yet some others have to continue paying off bad debts
of their own people's selfishness' aftermath.

i dislike what my mind is going through
yet i cant help some moments feeling like a fool.
i hate myself for feeling this way at times
but i have learned to accept what is yours is mine..

i hate myself for those moments.
i really do.

Session #672321

Oldies playing in the background
friends sitting around.

Having yet another one of our sessions.

i indulge in this blissful recurring occasion.

Just You.

Silently, i dove into my interesting read
oblivious to the surroundings
with the exception of You at the opposite seat.

And you are oblivious to my feelings.

Silently, i stole glances at You at some point of time
taking my eyes off the moments of reading.
while people around are oblivious to this feeling of mine
this hidden unknown thinking.

i have to stop this feeling
before it gets me totally lost.

Just because.

my routine drink

I held my mug of coffee,
loving the aroma it gives,
the awakening sensation with each sip.

i dislike routines.
Yet i love my this routine drink.

my failure to challenge. afterall.

i love the challenges that challenge bring.
i just hate the failure that comes along before the sting.

Can the both not be linked?

At first, I challenged myself not to fail.
But in the end, i chose to bail.
I faced the failure to challenge the unknown veiled.


I found myself facing the failure to challenge afterall.

Really hard i pray.

It's Just
A little Crush
That will go away.
Really hard i pray.

I hope
It doesn't develop.
It wouldn't stay.
Really hard i pray.

I wish
The feelings unleashed
Will continue to obey.
Really hard i pray.

And the person
In question
Will never see that day.
Really hard i pray.

for you bf!

i am being emo
at least that's what i've been told.
from the posts i add
from the words i said.
but please believe me when i say
i am really feeling okay.
the truth is i've never felt sad
since the day i faced the facts.

i am really doing well.
i hope you all can tell.

i am not being emo.
maybe only a little slow.
(ahwhahwah)

thank you for checking up on me though.

not-so-wise saying #4

i once read from somewhere:

"the unknown is a vulnerability."

i do not agree.

To me,
The unknown is a mystery
Awaiting for discovery.

给你。

你真的快乐吗？ 你真的是那么潇洒
她对你的坏 你还能忍受吧？

一直听说 她让你失望难过
做的事情也一错再错
你给的机会 她没好好把握
强词夺理 也越来越多

而你却愿意这样下去
受她摆布 全都是你
何不让她咎由自取
让她尝试心痛的意义

你爱她真的有这样深
对她的感情那么的纯真
伤心自己一个人分
心酸却没有人疼

我好想好想告诉你
所有不舆快由我来顶
但我又能怎么样跟她比
在你心目中的定意

如果你有一天发现
我对你的心情是种暗恋
我愿意一直陪在旁边
你是否对我感觉就由我如愿

我没那个勇气让你知道
你在我心中有多重要
能做你的朋友就好
能在随时给你个依靠。

你真的快乐吗？你是真的那么地潇洒
她对你的坏 你就继续忍受吧。

the phone.

I picked up the phone.
Heard the dial tone.

Heart turned into stone.
I slammed down the phone.

I picked up the phone.

Wrote You a message.

Felt it's too cliche.

I backspaced to a clear page.

And that is how i know

I will never get to show

Its You that is You.

You may never know.

I pretend.

Pretence.

To find a way to keep up
It's a work i have to guard.
It's a fine piece of art.
Pretence can be so hard.

Pretending.

To be fine as you spoke
Of the date with the toad.
i go into nonchalent mode.
Pretending it's a joke.

Pretender

my role in this game
to act like it's nothing
when we mention her name.
a pretender i became.

Pretend

I try my best at it
That attitude i seek
The things i did
To pretend indeed.

I am a great pretender.
Pretending that i do not pretend.
It's all but just a pretence.

I do pretend.

and that is why.

and that is why

with the winding roads that feels never-ending
with fighting against sudden rain and corrupted beings
with the pit stop moments supposedly the most welcoming.

and that is why

with the long conversations of nothing serious
with the singing of songs on top of our voices
with the enjoyment of driving into nothingness.

and that is why

with the pursue for good food holds
with the sour and spicy at its most
with the extremes of hot and cold.

and that is why

with the sudden cheap shopping spree
with the fresh seafood that feels almost free
with the jokes spoken of she,me, us, we.

and that is why

with the hated cigerattes that were thrown away
with the last minute car wash at the end of the day
with the time together as blue skies turned grey

and that is why

two cars should become one
to be able to have even more fun.

and that is why

we have to do it again sometime.

and that is why.

Someone.

i know You have someone that makes your heart flutter.
i know You have someone that makes your actions fumble.
i know You have someone that seems to invade Your mind.
i know You have someone that seems to be able to stop time.
i know You have someone that makes wrong things seem right.
i know You have someone that seems to be Your joy and pride.
i know You have someone that makes You want to be with forever.
i know You have someone that You will always want to remember.

But do You know?

You make someone feel
the same way as You do
to Your that someone beau?

My someone is You.

Words.

Words
would it be better read
from a painted picture instead?
or would actions be better heard?

I only have words.

Wise saying #2

A saying goes:

"there's a reason why the past became a past"

And that is why that chapter has closed.

if ever.

if ever you realise the significance
of your untimely appearance
would you have chosen another time to appear?

if ever you feel attached
to the feeling of detached
would that be my darkest hour?

if ever the result of the revelation
would expose all my hidden emotions
would i still choose the revelation to occur?

if ever mysteries were to be unfold
and secrets were meant to be told
would i still feel the unsure?

if there is ever.

Wise Saying #1

My friend said:

"if his sorrys could be bottled up and sold, i think it would make him a millionaire".

And that is why you never make a girl flare.

the moment.

i await for that one fine moment of nothingness
when i can face the beauty of unfeeling
as you share matters of yours and hers
in our little conversations of speaking

When will the moment appear?

i listen to all your thinking of the moment
as it changes along time fluttering by
i listen to the words you have spoken
i listen to the tears drop as you cry

When will the moment be clear?

i still feel nothing of the nothingness
i still feel the want to share your woes
i attempt to find you the light among the darkness
i seek for you the open at the close

When will the moment be near?

i want the moment to be here.

...

Insanity.
Happens in reality.
More often than not.

I need Not.

It's still about You. For You.

I saw for my friend..
how she was being treated by her partner
how much pain she has gone through with a cheater
for being in love with mood swings and bad temper
times were of tears not much laughter.

I know for my friend...
When Shes happy she's a princess
When Shes not, shes just trash
Her happiness is built upon Her mood
She stuck by Her through more bad than good.

I asked my friend..
why did she fall in love with a bad boi
who made the whole relationship a drag not joy
She really does not in any way deserve
to be for her to be in love.

People say the picture is clear
with the view from the outside world.

Can You see my friend in You?

Must i be a bad boi to make You notice me?
I am who i am can you see?

It's still for You. About You.

A subconscious thought.

Unconsciously
I thought of her
At intervals.

And the truth is.

I have fallen
Unware of the fall

And now i'm broken.

i continue to wonder.

if the beginning never began
will the endless road ever come to an end
or will it continue to turn and bend?
i stopped to ponder.

if the feelings are never felt
if the holding on is never held
will the unmelting heart ever melt?
i had to shudder.

if the thoughts are never being thought
and the sought-afters are never being sought
and You never bring along what You have brought
would the outcome be any better?

i continue to wonder.

It's You. still You.

i lay burdened with feelings of my own
Unsure if i could ever make it known
to the others who doesn't have a clue
that the unknown feelings are for You.

i opened my door wide to let you through
Unsure if you know it is You
That the thrown wide opened door
is You that it is opened for.

It's You. still You.

not-so-wise saying #3

Someone quoted:
"you need to be cruel to be kind."

I voted:
"you need to be kind to manage cruelty fine."

My world's other world.Bah.

My world is in their own other world
Of customers, stoves and pots
They each have their own character
Who cooks food that rots.

My world is hooked to their other world
And all of them insist
That their other world is good and fun
And that i duno what i've missed.

I vow not to give in to my world's call
To join them in their other world.
To the temptation I will not fall
For this i am trying to be sure.

Beautiful You.

You are beautiful you must realise
Do not allow yourself to feel otherwise.
Though she may make you think else way
If you trust me this is what i say.

You are a treasure
no other can measure
Up to you.
It's true.

You are beautiful.

Merry christmas.

Christmas.

A way to end a year.

Making merry with full of cheer.

A festive of love.

From up above.

I wish You.

A merry wonderful christmas.

Even in my dreams.

i woke up, darker than blue.
Even in my dreams she was perfect for you.
Even in my dreams she was your desire
Even in my dreams it was she you admire.

i woke up, breathless.
Even in my dreams i was feeling daggers.
Even in my dreams you stood up for her.
Even in my dreams she was still your girl.

i woke up, reluctant to return to sleep.
Even in my dreams you two i have to meet.
Even in my dreams the pain was real.
Even in my dreams fate seemed to seal.

i woke up, hating to dream.
Coz even in there it only seems
She was the only one you see
That is already in reality.

two different worlds
held the same outcome.
i grew numb.