Wise Saying #18

"To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did."

Good advice to heed.

Emotions.

Emotions...

Control them before it controls you.
Before it makes you a fool.

You may never know...

You may never know...

but You are the one who gave me the push
to do everything that i actually did
to have fulfilled the dream that i once seek..

You may never know...

but You are the one who gave me the reason
the courage and the strength
to turn things down before it began..

You may never know...

but You may be the one.

Wise Saying #17

Johnnie Walker says "Keep Walking".

Yes..keep walking..away.

I do not intend to stay.

Thank you for that.

i would love to feel "i told you so"
but i still love you enough not to.
I just hope you would slowly let it go
We have to do what we have to do.

It has been a wonderful memory
and maybe in the end i may regret
not grabbing this opportunity
of the chance you want to get back.

but i have moved on in my life right now
and i think you should as well.
For it has turned out right so far
in the past we should no longer dwell.

i want to thank you for feeling the way still
for being honest with how you feel
for telling me what you did..
i guess the wound would slowly heal.
For time will never stand still.

Thank you.

you know who you are.

i was told to go and add
my friend's diary on internet
and so i did and after the read
i was blown away by the things she said.

now i finally realise she's actually clever
seriously do not judge a book by its cover
she can really articulate and write pretty well
honestly from her daily language no one can tell.

but of course no matter what i say here
she must know that i love her
and that i admire some of her entries
for it is really beautiful and lovely.

for one, this is wat she vaguely wrote
The greatest opportunity for a good time...
is one that shows surprising signs..
totally feels like out of a book.

She really surprised me
im shocked by what i see
you totally rock girl
and please continue to be.

No longer longed.

No longer want to think what you are thinking
No longer want to guess what you are feeling
No longer want to decipher what you are saying
No longer want to hope what you are meaning.

No longer need to long.

An Inside joke #4

I have a friend who is quite a looker
but if you actually do know her
she has a few problems in hand..

problems i hope i will never understand.

She can't get to sleep
She can't get to eat
And she is already so mini..

oh, and she can't get to pee.

She also can't get to poo
She just has no fate with the loo
She needs to go get herself checked.

I think it's just sleep she lacked.

Indifference.

you feel like the world is on your shoulders
and you are about to break down.

That is because you feel everything matters.

Learn to act indifferent.

you feel stifled, suffocated
like you are going to drown.

That is because you think everything is complicated.

Learn to feel indifferent.

you feel angry and frustrated
everything just adds up to a substantial amount.

That is because your emotions are clouded.

Learn to be indifferent.

Indifference is the best way out.

Wise Saying #16

" I have learned that I still have alot to learn."

This is for certain.

Issues

It hasn't been an issue to me
At least that's what i see
How could it be...

It's been too long.

It seems like an issue afterall
When suddenly you dropped the ball
but i realised it's never been your call...

It's been too short.

Please do not make your issues into mine
For i have better things to do with my time
I am and will be fine.

No issue at all.

The few of Yous.

I just need the few of Yous in my life.

And I have found all.

I need nobody more.

If it is too much.

If it is too deep for you and you do not know the meaning
Just ask and you will be told.
If it is too complex for you that you do not know the thinking
Just spend a little more time to see it unfold.
If it is too rush that you do not know if you are healing
Just take it easy and take it slow.
If it is no longer funny and you do not know if it was to be joking
Just try to see the underlying message it holds.

If it is too much for you that you do not know what you are feeling
Just wait a little longer for it to show.
If it is too much for you that you do not know what else to be doing
Just do what you usually know.
If it is too much for you that you do not know what you are seeking
Just be brave and try, be bold.
If it is too much for you that it feels overwhelming
Just understand it can disappear if you want it to go.

If it is too much for you
It would be too much for me too.

Still walking.

One step forward pushes me two steps back.

I will not give up.

As yet.

Wise Saying #15

"Good decisions come from experience. And experience comes from bad decisions."

You still have to decide no matter what happens.

Wise Saying #14

" Every cloud has a silver lining. If you want a rainbow, you got to put up with the rain."

Wise saying #13

"Just like Money, Time should not be wasted, but spent."

And spend it wisely.

An inside joke #3

Kelvin and Jack went in jb
to eat alot of loklok.
Jack fell ill, had to eat alot of pills
Kelvin laughed at Jack for being cock.

Another mate whose name is Ten
Is the boyfriend of Jack
And virus was passed to Ten's girlfriend
The girlfriend's face turned black.
(she's the 'soulmate' of Jack)

Kelvin's girlfriend, let's name her boss
to jb she also went along
Kelvin caught Jack's virus from the actual source
But Boss stayed healthy and strong.

Ten is starting to feel itchy throat
and has alot of work to do.
So Jack has to take the bolt
Before the virus passed on to the dude.

But despite it all Jack knows for sure
that Ten and Kelvin loves her.
For they still meet up here and there
depite her sickly disposal.

I love my Kelvin and my Ten.
They are my men.

Wise Saying #12

"sometimes you can be a winner when you do not lose your patience while you are losing the game.."

keep your patience to keep to your aim.

Our reality story

This is a story , close to reality
some things did happen actually.
so here it is , added to my writing list
for laughter and fun, joy and peace.

Once upon a time, in my faraway land
there lived a world of gay friends.
and im close to a few of them
though not all in the gang.

But anyway, we all love to play
and make merry together
so here's a game, to guess the name
of each of us, of one another.

Zay's the attitude, aloof one
who can be as cold and strong as a warrior.
May yee is loud, and lots of fun
from afar you can hear her laughter.
Ten yin's good-looking and reads alot
and sometimes can also be anal.
Miss wah can be serious,can also act cutesy
and is hooked to fml and twitter.
Iffy is book-smart , though doesnt speak much
and can be prim and proper.
Karrot is funky and dresses up nicely
and pretty much hooked to apple.
And the clown of the group who thinks she's funny
the name would be pig liver.

And so here you go for fun's sake
try to figure out and take your pick.

Have a ball it's great!

An Inside joke #2

My virus is always known to be potent
that my friends always curse and swear.
And it has been happening ever so often
Seriously no idea it came from where.

Yet despite my state of a walking omen
They still show their love and care
Therefore i know im still important
during meet-ups they still want me to be there

They still dare.

An inside joke #1

"eh eh sialll....ehhlow ten yin!"

and that's how it has always been ever since.

Hate jittery

Just at the start of the day and i feel jitters.

Hate this feeling to the max.

Hate to feel vexed.

Founder of Josh.

When i sit down and randomly thought back
those beginning few days when we first met
smoking along the sidewalk while having a chit chat
talking about the love experiences that were really bad.
And somehow along the way where we were at
we managed to come this far as yet
and we actually bonded just like that
like two individual earrings of one set.

From that fateful day right up until present
along the way we were still quite distant
when u came back from your camping lesson
that was when our meet up times hastened.
We started to just have chats that are random
started hanging out for drinking sessions
started to have deeper conversations
started to see our friendship blossom.

And now we have arrived to this state
where we have slowly become close mates
where hanging out until really late
is just another one of our many dates.

It's really funny how we can click
Funny how we can make each other tick
Funny how we never sort to seek
And yet we somehow managed to meet.

And im happy we did.

Princess

That's the title you deserve
that's the way you should be loved.
That's the way you should be treated
That is what you are worth.

Do not allow yourself to be at any lesser
than the position of being the first.
For you are more than special
than any other girls.

More than any others.

Wise Saying #11

"keep your feet on the ground even if you are wearing better shoes."

you never know when it will get loose.

So much of too little.

There is only so much i can help
so much i can advise
so much i can give
so much i can analyse
so much i can do
so much i can say
so much i can feel
so much i can convey.

There is very little left to know
too little left to show
too little time to borrow
too little memories to hold

i have shown it all
and there is nothing more.

Now i'm just waiting, just like before.

爱或不爱。

如果爱的选泽不存在
但愿能和你分享一段精彩
因那已能带给我愉快
真的不需要什么爱

能够带给你关怀
也是一种非爱的爱
即使感觉还没来
也希望这已足够取代

只因相爱没那麽容易
不是说可以就可以
即使给你找到那位知己
也要看那个人的心意

过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福也没有那麽容易
才会特别让人著迷

爱的感觉不是说来去容易。

Wise Saying #10

"Present actions of people reflect how they are groomed in the past."

Well upbringing is definitely a must.

Not so wise saying #6

"i'm so bored i imagined shooting down the clock.
Just to kill time."

And boredom and sanity separates by a fine thin line.

Out of my league

Let them fight all they want

for i am totally not in that league.

Do not liase me with those kids.


They will not understand my kind of fun.

They can try, but they can't.

And i'm keeping mum.

Life filled with If.

'If' is half of 'Life'
Do people actually realise?

And what is more...

'If' smacks right in the middle
It can really be quite a chore
Life is really half filled with riddles
Which is why it is not a bore.

But i do not want more.

The moves

I seriously have no clue
What other things i should do
Maybe i'm just not enough for you.
Maybe my time is due.

I'm left with no other moves.
I'm on the verge to lose.
Probably this just proves
The love game just has no rules.

I wish for happiness for you.
I hope for the day you may be moved.
I wish i know what else to do
I hope to know the next other moves.

I need to learn the moves to move
I need to learn to move the moves
Or maybe i just need to learn
there's a far away place i need to move into.

Maybe i just need to learn to move.

Wise saying #9

"Everyone has a burden. It boils down to how you carry it."

And depending on yourself,
it can be difficult or easy to get rid.

Just do as you deem fit.

So many. Yet so little.

So many thoughts
so little time.

So many queries
so little signs.

So many emotions
so little words

So many moments
so little perks.

When will we stop acting dumb

On the other side of the world...

It is staring at disasters in the eye
facing all kinds of damages on a daily count.
Tornadoes appear suddenly from the sky
earthquakes rumble up from the ground.
People forced to witness their loved ones die
forced to see their houses crumble down.
Fear and despair sweep over their tears and cries
As they stagger helplessly around.

On our side of the world...

We take for granted the safety arms God has placed us in
As we take each day lightly as though it will always come.
We get angry over the slightest most foolish thing
Like friendship or relationship problems which can be pretty dumb.
We waste time scolding, quarrelling, fighting, being mean
and then yet choose to be nice , loving, caring to some.

Do we really need to fight deaths and disaster scenes
Before we understand what exactly is harm.

We must wake up before He gives up on us,
before He declares He is done.

wise saying #8

"Error has an unforgettable taste..until we finally understand its lesson."

And that is when we are already burnt.

But at least that is when we have already learned.

Steps to care.

Each step we take leads to somewhere.

Sometimes even though we do not want to be there.

Yet the steps we take nobody cares.

For it is ours to make it lead to anywhere.

Only we should care. If we want to care.

no longer You.

For someone who is not the one
You sure know how to make it work for you.
You made fun become less fun
You made me not know what to do.

I salute You.

I'm going to some place new.

Before i fall.

Is this how fallen feels like?
Is this how reality really bites?

At least i tried.

I'm taking flight.

Before i fall.
Anymore.

Wise saying #7

"Regret is created to be handled, not wallow in."

If only it is as easy as it seems.

You are who You are not.

Are You who You portray You are
or just totally the same as how i saw through You?

i still do not have a clue.

But i will find out soon
if there is ever a chance

i only need that once.

Just be careful.

Josh(ie) Brown

As we take you out from the horrid place
fear was written all over your face.
You trod over to us, eyes glazed.

our hearts teared.

Your tail was in between your legs
you lost so much weight
you looked half dead.

our hearts shivered.

you reeked, smell like crap
you looked really bad
you must have felt really sad

our hearts feared.

Thank God...

in the end it was a happy day
in the end He heard all that we prayed
in the end He heard all that we said
in the end you turned out okay.

You are in safe hands now Joshie.

Wise Saying #6

"Because you are genuine you would not think of doing things with a hidden motive. Nor would you think of others in that way."

And because you trust, you learn there is always a price to pay.

As they collide.

When right and wrong collide.

That's when wrong becomes right.
and right remains right.

And that's what i like.

If right and wrong do ever collide.

falling apart.

And when worry fills the heart,
it slowly tears your soul up.

im slowly falling apart.

Not-so-wise saying #5

'Suicide is man's way of telling God "you can't fire me, because i quit." '

Once again, another one of man's lousy excuses for himself, for his shit.

We can be such creeps.

Like a volcano

The hot lava spills and creates damages
when a volcano erupts.
Exactly the same if i ever blow up.


Once the anger is allowed to be caved in
It will be out of control.
This for sure I know.

And so i will keep far away from being there
before situations get too wrecked.

And i will definitely regret.

I hate to regret.

another ?

The winds howl loudly
against the storm of night.

Yet the stars still shine bright.

What an imperfectly perfect sight.

:))

We could have remained as strangers
walking pass each other on a crowded street
Probably throw glances at one another
which people in our world do when they greet.

We could have never become mates
And be this closely knit
If not for what i believe is fate
That allows us to click.

It was not too early and never too late
For in my life you perfectly fit
And so i thank the stars as well as fate
for allowing you for me to meet.

Nice quote #10

"I'd rather find imperfection at a perfect time
Than have found perfection appearing at an imperfect time."

For the latter would mean you will never be mine.

For my bf #3

You need not be good with words
For i have enough to last us both.
You may not say your appreciation all the time, if at all
I do understand, just for the fact we are close.

Amidst little arguments that do not last to another day more
I can be annoying, and more often than not step on your toes.
I have said many a times, and i know repeated words are a bore
But seriously, I will be there for you through the good and the woes.

This is what breaks or makes a friendship,it is up to our call
And i'm glad in our case it is 'make', a fact that i can proudly boast.
For you are my bf, and i will be there when you are down, when you stand tall
And the bf position will forever be yours,a place only you hold.

Again, for my bf.

Fear

Sometimes, fear can be a kind of courage too.
I'm scared as well, just like You.
But i'm also certain, we will pull it through.
May it be together as one, or individually as two.

We can even make courage become fearful.

Probably

Probably it was something
Yet probably you want nothing.
But probably it could be everything.

Probably, it can lead to anything.

nice quote #9

"you would never be deprived if you do not seek the desire."

Even if you have to be a liar.

To yourself, to the world
To whoever, to whatever.

Yet no one should live without desires.

Just like a ship.

Now it's finally clear, and it actually fits
why the word relation has the word ship behind it.

Think hard, it is true indeed.

Just like a ship,
it stays afloat if care is showered
If maintenance is done it gets all the power.
Yet it will sink if it is not well looked after
if it is abandoned it will eventually crumble.

And the same goes for the word friendship.

Just like a ship.

Growing up.

For all that you have put me through
I just want to say a big thank you.
For i have grown up more than i think i could.
And for seeing things so clearly the way i should.

Which from now i would.

Miss-takes

The heavens can make mistakes too.
By creating someone like me
attempt to stand next to someone like you.

What a boo-boo.