you know?

you claim you know me enough.
to be able to tell that i lied, to you, to myself.

if you actually do know me
you would know it was never intended to be
a so-called lie is all you can see
i beg to differ, it was just me being me.

my feelings went roller-coaster
that's why i chose not to share
not coz i want to drift further
but i know those emotions do not last long enough to bear.

when i talked about it i just wanted you to know
it's still you i choose, to go through times of high and low.
yet it was a wrong move that i totally regret
i should just have kept my fucking mouth shut, sealed it should have been kept.

u said u know me, do you really know?
for if you do, you would never think of me being that low.