Turn it up

Baby, its over, we both know, lets go forward.
I love you, but in a different way, I love you, forever.
Now that we've come to the end of a story-y and I know that it's gonna be hard for me.
Might hurt some, might get too much, but I gotta let it be.
As the world turns around and we go different places, new things, new dreams, new faces.
Wanna shake up, when we break up, but we keep our memories.

'coz I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

Baby, it's better, and I want you, to be happy.
Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
it ain't easy the more and the more you try.
So they'll be cheating, be deceiving, but not me and my girl.
We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting.
So we'll be grown ups, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.

We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine (fiiiine).
Have you heard there's this thing that heals, and it's called time (tiiiime).
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
and though, my heart will break, a new me will fill the space.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

Pixie Lott

Reluctance at its best.

i daresay
you will never find someone else
feeling for you the same way.

they may like you enough
to dote and go all out to please you
but would never be on par with how my heart feels.

Trust me
by the time you can feel and realise
i may be long gone, said my goodbyes.

Not because i lost the feelings
but because that would have been for your best outcome
and i love you enough to force myself to run.

Wrecked.

One way or another
someone would always misunderstand
only you would know your real intent.

Live for yourself,
never for someone else.

散场的拥抱

从你的眼角
慢慢地明了
我能做的很少
原来你藏著伤
但不想和我聊

你选的电影
像某种预告
不坦白的主角
最后流着眼泪
坚持独自走掉

散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬
不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱
混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道
你留著和他所有合照
明明面前是答案
却撕掉 不要

呵护地祈祷 温柔地讨好
爱能让人渺小
苦笑冒充微笑
浪漫得不肯逃


散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬
不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱
混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道
我们和你们不能比较
但我的爱多强悍
出乎你预料


散场的拥抱
我还在燃烧
但你心里的浪潮
拒绝让我看到
你煎熬
不肯定什么是最想要
爱才又像乐园又像监牢

散场的拥抱
混乱的心跳
多宁愿只是争吵
还能道歉和好
我知道 太美的回忆像副手铐
越是挣脱越缠绕
我比你明了

倪安东

Stereo Love

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
I don't wanna be another one
Paying for the things I never done
Don't let go,
Don't let go
To my love.

Can I get to your soul?
Can you get to my thought?
Can we promise we won't let go?
All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real.

Coz you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I touch your body
I feel I'm losing control
Coz you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I see you baby
I just don't wanna let go.

I hate to see you cry
Your smile is a beautiful lie
I hate to see you cry
My love is dying inside

I can fix all those lies
Oh baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you
You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside
My heart is in pain but I'm smiling for you

Can I get to your soul?
Can you get to my thought?
Can we promise we won't let go?
All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real.

Coz you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I touch your body
I feel I'm loosing control
Coz you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I see you baby
I just don't wanna let go.

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
Don't let go,
Don't let go
To my love.

I hate to see you cry, your smile is a beautiful lie

I hate to see you cry, my love is dying inside(x3)

I can fix all those lies
Oh baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you
You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside
My heart is in pain but I'm smiling for you
Oh baby I've tried to make the things right,
I need you more than air when I'm not with you,
Please don't ask me why, just kiss me this time
My only dream is about you and I

Sian-ness.

The only direction that you can take
After hitting the all-time low
Is up.

Great.

fight.

Channel all my energies into other thoughts

and no more inner battles would have to be fought.

Help me please God.

Grenade.

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you were trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

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very very tired.

i'm sick of my emotions riding along yours...
all the time.
i'm tired of having to keep trying to guess...
what's on your mind.
i'm angry that i'm not loving myself more...
for being blind.

Most of all,
i'm exhausted by all the signs.

Wise Saying #32

"Speak when you are angry, and you would make the best speech you will ever regret."

Why allow yourself to feel bad?

The one.

"Love, is knowing that the person is the wrong one, yet you feel enough to right the wrong, until the person feels like the right one."

The one.

And goodbye.

There are just how many times you can play me
And i will let you be.
Until it's time for me to open my eyes and see
you're just not the one for me baby.

how many times have i thought in your defence
that whatever you said was not a pretence
that's how much i feel for you
that i'm willingly turning dense.

im sorry darling it's time to go
everything just has to be over we both know
i could no longer put up with the show
i could no longer pretend we are just taking things slow.

im walking away once and for all.
i couldn't when i've tried to before.
but this is the very last straw
im leaving, this is my call.

im sorry darling it's time to go
everything just has to be over, we both know
i could no longer put up with the show
i could no longer pretend we are just taking things slow.

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你和我。

告诉我
为什么我要弄得自己这么累
弄得自己这么憔悴
想这么多错与对
到后来还不是当做什么都无所谓

提点我
为什么我还要继续走这一条折磨路
往前看又却只看见一片模糊
究竟还需要多少个脚步
才能带我到达你的国土

安慰我
你的冷漠只是因为这就是你
你的不在乎只因你有重要事要理
而不是因为你需要保持距离
更不是因为我不是你的唯一

原谅我
我没有对你百分百地诚恳
也无法对你有百分百的信任
好多朋友都骂我做得太笨
但我的潇洒是个伪装 这我承认

你和我
能否看到开花结果
能否作为彼此的寄托
能否好好一起过生活
属于一段时间的你和我

it stopped.

whatever that is creating the blockage of the flow of words that i am trying to get out of my head, get it out of the way already.

It's making me sick.

and i write.

i was told to write down whatever i know
i was told to pen down whatever i think i ought to
i was told to vent on paper all my highs and lows
i was told to just shoot.

so here i am.

i am feeling all the emotions in the world
suddenly it's here, and then it's not.
that few seconds of feeling terrible
covered by the exhaustions of all fights being fought.

it's more than being on the seat of a roller coaster
when the exhiliration feeling is no longer hot.
and then it's on the chair in an old theatre
when the slow movie playing is comfort to a notch.

and then you cry when you just feel the tears coming
and then suddenly it stopped.
you laugh when something is funnily tickling
and then it came to a halt.

All of these and more fill up one person's soul
how not to be tired out?
And so, please be told
this is what life is all about.

here i am.

damned.